Almost

It is 6:25 a.m. here and we have slept very little.  In just a couple hours we will be leaving to meet Moses.  We are feeling a mix of emotions.  Excited, anxious, reflective....... 

 

The day we started this process our lives changed forever.  That day we started down a path that led us to today.  This 'big' day of meeting.  This life-altering day.  The word FOREVER is hanging in the air.  Take a minute and think about it.  Forever.  How many times do I move through the motions in a day, not realizing that what is done can not be changed.  It is a moment finished and the next comes.  I move on only to complete and do and be.  Not really thinking on what the impact is with regard to eternity.  I don't think about it, that is, until it might encroach upon my freedoms, my wants, my desires.  Suddenly I become protective and consider the impact on my future and my children's future.  The truth is, I'm selfish and I want what I want-- when I want it.  Adoption has a way of challenging this.  It has brought me to the core of who I am, what I want to do, who I want to glorify.  Is it me?  Is it God?  The last month has revealed my tendencies towards self preservation.  It has been a painful revelation.  I like to think of myself with nice adjectives to describe all my good qualities.  I'm not really that nice.  I'm not really all that good.  I don't want to give too much.  How sad.  I am grieved by my own selfishness. 

 

Yet, in God's goodness towards me, He doesn't leave me there.  I am not the same person who gave her life to God and asked Jesus Christ to come into her heart and life.  He has changed me.  He still changes me. 

 

Today, Mario and I will change.  Our family will change.  The Dominguez name will cover another child.  

 

Today, God's grace is bringing us to Moses.  Our son, FOREVER!

Praise the Lord God almighty , who moves men to fulfill His will . No one can close any door He opens or open any He shuts. He does not give us (His children ) what we deserve or earn ,but only the best for eternity.(preparation for Heaven) Blessed be the name of the Lord !!!